I hate it!!

I really hate taking those pills....

I don't care if they make me a better student. I lose wight and when I come home I can do anything allmost not even watch anime or play gaia..plus it makes me feel so bad that I have tears in eyes and I can't help it..

It makes me think too much about things that I hide away. It makes me realize how lonely I feel.
At the school I'm now going to. I feel like an out cast already.. but its only the first day. It could get better right?

I can't help to feel envies of Sophia and Hanna.. They get the chance to see each other and Say what they want to the others and make new friends....Its all in english too.
I think this is what they call left out..

I don't wanna give up though I wanna make friends too!
Only I don't want to lose my old ones just because I'm in another school. I don't know why I'm still crying. Its not that bad I like my class, there nice and most of them like hard rock.....but there still all in groups I have no place in groups for real if its 5 or more people.

I always run away..I hope that I well be and take part soon, maybe if its just a couple of words.

Thats all for this week