I'm abotu to lose it I think

I wear a bracelet on my arm to control my sad emotions so I never have to show my weakness and go through the staring eyes. But I was about to brake in class I don't really know why. I now hate and dread going to school I Lost something today too. Something that I kept scene ever. I I just know I will slip up with all this thats going on. Theres nowhere I can go to be alone.

I can never let out any tears like this last time I waited like this I allmost jumped. I hate that I can't talk to people. Whats wrong with me and why is my heart hurting??