I'm shaking

I'm afraid of being left alone.... I don't know what to do I really don't. My heart tells me to give up.

I shouldn't be selfish though. It doesn't matter if they don't care right? tonights culture night but I feel like I won't get to be with anyone.. It hurts though. the sadness is alot. Hanna said just ask rebacca if you can hang out with them but I always had a feeling they never really like me. I guess I will go....

No I can't be around town seen with no one its lonely and I would want to get hit by a train...I can't expect people to save me....I'm not allowed to be sad!!! I'm the worst screw up ever nothing will go right for me I really can already tell whats going to happen.

Its almost 3 my eyes are watering but that doesn't matter.