Freaking out.

Theres one way out right now I can't run I have to go but its killing me. I'm so scared and embarrassed. I'm most likely stupid as hell for thinking all this. but I just wanted to make it peaceful I'm dying. I really want out. I can't just run away can I? I don't have a choice and stuff. I'm almost too preshered at the moment I know I just have to bite my tong and go there it. Beside I always say who care if I'm in pain I don't count I'm just no one for real I don't even know what my real self is.

All we are is stuff that lives and then dies I know it sounds sad but it is true. Once we die we go into nothingness I believe. All though I wish I could tell the things to people I always wanted to.

The only thing I don't get was feeling and we all every single thing has them and can sometime can not control them yet I haven't fingered out why but when I do eve it won't mean a thing. I hate it! I can't even control my emotions. I don't wanna turn out the way I know I will.